The practice of embodied presence takes a lot of patience: you cannot force it or make it happen.
It is more a relaxation, an allowing. It is a process similar to slowly releasing a hand that has been held in a tight fist for a long time: you open and let go, open and let go, slowly, gently.

Let Presence drip like thick, golden honey, from the top of the head downwards, filling all the hidden corners of the body with more space and wakefulness.

Open and let go.
Open and let go.
Slowly.
Gently.

~ Chameli Ardagh

Things falling apart is a kind of testing and also a kind of healing. We think that the point is to pass the test or to overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy.  ~Pema Chodron