Today’s blessing is for the numinous ones who are looking at their future and remembering their past.

May you have the courage to retrieve capacity and giftedness, which may have been the very thing that made you other, and may you, in valuing this aspect of yourself, retreat from harm-makers.

May your insights about loss and grief become part of what you tune into and contribute to how you steer yourself onward. Too much loss starved, too little loss bloats; may your wisdom develop and support you.

May you stop, if necessary with surgical precision, the fantasy that one day, if you keep forgiving, or accepting or swallowing, you will be rewarded.

May you decide that you are ready for goodness now and that the structures that would have you put that off, are designed to serve a system that is parasitic and not symbiotic.

May you dear one, delight in your own life and the lives of your beloveds, and be surrounded by those who delight in you.

~numinous jane

however long it takes….

inquiry for today~ for all the lonely moments you know well……

wanted and held…..

You are not here to find love, nor to be greeted by happiness at every turn, nor to be showered with kindness, nor to be celebrated by all, to forever remain a child.

No. You came here to create love out of war.

Your soul willingly left its blissful place beyond all troubles to descend into a stifling frame of bone, blood and flesh. Why? Because only here can inner strength be forged by pain, can wisdom be nurtured by failure, can love be the reward of those who choose to give love. Your soul came here to struggle with the bitter things of life and squeeze out of them a syrup of sweet, inner joy.

And as there is no sweetness as succulent as bittersweet, so there is no river of love that runs as deep as the love forged through a battle of the heart, no strength as powerful as that wrestled from the hands of an enemy through stubborn, defiant resolve, no wisdom as the wisdom gained by stumbling in darkness, standing up again, stumbling and walking again, and again.

All that is good, all that has meaning, all is up to you alone.

~Rabbi Tzvi Freeman