the sound of heartache with a lovely harmony

divine essence

divine essence

In spiritual practice, initiation is no simple ceremony- it is the passage through a difficult task by which our heart is matured. In undertaking the trials and hardships of a period of initiation, we can transform our view of ourselves and the world. We can awaken our spiritual authority and inner knowing, a trust that can carry us in the face of difficulties and death. Initiation forces upon us a shift of identity in which we can transcend our small sense of self, release what is called ‘the body of fear,’ and awaken an undying wisdom, love, and fearlessness. Initiation’s transforming process is not always outwardly obvious. Some experience it as a slow spiral, a steady and repetitive remaking of inner being. The heart gradually deepens in knowing, compassion, and trust through the hundred thousand repeated practices and heartfelt sincerity of a regular spiritual discipline. The Buddha likened this process to the ocean floor which descends little by little to the depths of the sea…..Jack Kornfield

the most magical moments are not always beautiful or mystical or comprehensible….rather, they touch the beloved heart of truth and pain and longing and despair and vision and blessedness….epiphanies are overrated; the depths are too deep to reconcile….the glitterati of life lies in its vast, dark mystery….

Man is always reaching out for meaning, always setting out on his search for meaning; in other words, what I call the ‘will to meaning’ is even to be regarded as ‘man’s primary concern,’ to quote Abraham Maslow’s comments on a paper of mine. It is precisely this will to meaning that remains unfulfilled by today’s society- and disregarded by today’s psychology. Current motivation theories see man as a being who is either reacting to stimuli or abreacting his impulses. They do not consider that actually, man is responding- responding to questions that life is asking him, and in that way fulfilling the meanings that life is offering. I have again and again been accused of overestimating man, putting him on too high a pedestal. In aviation, there is a business called ‘crabbing.’ Say there is a crosswind from the north and the airport I wish to land lies due east. If I fly east I will miss my destination. In order to reach it I must compensate for this drift by crabbing. It is similar with man: he too ends at a point lower than he might have unless he is seen on a higher level that includes his higher aspirations. If we are to bring out the human potential at its best, we must first believe in its existence and presence. Otherwise man will ‘drift,’ he will deteriorate. Thus, rather than dismissing the concept of a will to meaning as wishful thinking, one could more justifiably conceive of it as a self-fulfilling prophecy…..Victor Frankl

seeing fireflies as if for the very first time, every time….

When death comes

like the hungry bear in autumn;

when death comes and takes all

the bright coins from his purse

to buy me, and snaps the purse shut…

I want to step through the door full of curiosity,

wondering: what is it going to be like,

that cottage of darkness?

And therefore I look upon everything

as a brotherhood and a sisterhood….

and I think of each life as a flower, as common

as a daisy field, and as singular…

and each body a lion of courage, and something

precious to the earth.

When it’s over, I want to say: all my life

I was a bride married to amazement.

I was the bridegroom, taking the world

into my arms….

….Mary Oliver

8 thoughts on “the sound of heartache with a lovely harmony

  1. Some of my favorite authors here, Kornfield reiterating the deepest mystery and the greatest growth is not always in the light of day but in the dark places, in times where we create / initiate our own light. Viktor’s Frankel who knew the darkness all too well speaks of our deepest desire to not just see the light but to know we are the light, as we amplify it’s presence in our lives … And Mary, whose feet I can feel walking the beaches of P-town full of wonder, held in awe of the beauty that is life, a thousand sunsets her spiritual practice that led her to these words ! Guidance for your day …

    • somehow they all send healing….hold us when we need just a little more to move us beyond ourselves…..back to ourselves…..a wispy dream of serenity g.f.s…..

  2. Enjoy the quotes: love the poem. I have struggled with a tendency to let the search for meaning and purpose become an idol, undermined by ego needs. Any thoughts on that?

    • indeed……I think just by knowing this and questioning, it’s part of the spiritual discernment process……I think it’s not about subduing the ego…’s about knowing it….Jack Kornfield says, ‘Ordinary perfection is being true to ourselves, to the way things are.’ may the journey be true….blessings….

  3. I’m often amazed at the lengths some will go to, in order to avoid sorrow or heartache. Surely grief is inherent to living (to loving). What we lose in leaving from the life (this place) is a soul’s sense, as deep and real as any religious faith, of what it is to hold on to the wild and beautiful places that surround us ~ our own sweet ‘untethered’ wilderness. ~ B

  4. Everything about this post is simply beautiful. The words are so touching. There’s nothing like reading words that actually make you feel something. Thank you.


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