I want to travel. I want to laugh. I want to live and love and be happy. I want to spend time with my favorite human beings. I want to dance and dance and dance. I want to encounter strangers as if they are friends I do not know yet. I want to see people like they really are. I want deep talk. I want depth. I want to swim through the dark waters in fearlessness. I want to let go of the anger, fear, and hatred that’s still remaining in my heart. I want to have a pure soul, to speak only words of truth, and to live that truth in everything I think and feel and do.
I want to show the people I love that I love them and oh, how I love them they ought to know. I want to show my own inner self. I want the world to see who I am. I want to show the colors, all the colors of my soul and my heart that got rid of all the blackness of the past. I want to be heartfelt emotion, and vulnerability, and strength. I want to be fearlessness. I want to be a rainbow. I want to be a golden queen. I want to be the maze you never ever want to leave.
A fairy. A goddess. A woman.
I want to be real.
~Dahi Tamara Koch
what am I creating now?
inquiry for today~ what is my deepest longing?
The irony is that we attempt to disown our difficult stories to appear more whole or more acceptable, but our wholeness – even our wholeheartedness- actually depends on the integration of all of our experiences, including the falls.