the rhythms of a life…another full moon….another brave day….

honoring re-birth

As spiritual practice evolves, to see more & more one must do less & less. The one who is practicing moves gradually from active involvement to a more passive, limited, & ultimately nonexistent role in his or her own awakening. For most adults, the unselfconscious innocence & wide-eyed wonder of childhood was lost long ago. Once in a while, though, when the circumstances of life temporarily stun us into stillness & our minds grow quiet, we catch a glimpse of life unconditioned, before the fragmentation of concepts- what Eden must have looked like before the Fall. Often unexpected, always unearned, moments such as these bring with them a sense of blessing, well-being, & grace that is unmistakable. And whatever transporting experience gives rise to them- a spectacular sunset, the birth of a child- the grace comes to us not by dint of great effort on our part, but just the opposite: it comes when all our habitual activity ceased & gives way to rapt attention. For most, these openings are fleeing & infrequent, but throughout the ages, those who have devoted their lives to spiritual practice have reported that such moments come more often as they advance on their path. Is it by the ocean’s grace that the wave finds the shore or the creek winds its way back to its source? The answer lies in the law of existence, the way things are, what Buddhists call the Dharma. The entrance is blocked until naked awareness, the beginning & end of the human experience, allows us to see it has never been closed. Nothing needs to be done…..John Greer

On the eve of my full moon birthday, this seems to be what is most haunting…..the blessed idea, concept, realm & desire of ‘non-doing’….seeing it, tasting it, understanding it, conceptualizing it…..yet needing to dissect, to feed it…to nest in it….I wonder…

on the eve of insights & lost realms…

What are the limitations of logic & discursive thought, which are foundations of the scientific method? Will science ever be able to answer all of our questions about our world & reveal an ultimate truth?’ In what ways does the rational, analytical approach of science differ from Buddhist contemplative science? How does Buddhist meditation lead to findings, & can we really call such findings scientific? Einstein said, ‘On principle, it is quite wrong to try founding a theory on observable magnitudes alone. In reality the very opposite happens. It is the theory which decides what we can observe.’…..Matthieu Ricard

spiritual hunger outlasts suffering when followed to the source… the quiet space around the heart, there is no haunting….only knowing, only giving, only joy……the longing of our true nature to find its finest home…nesting, rooting, & flying….these intricate masks we wear weave our stories…let them be….but remember to take them down from time to time…..feel the sun on your face….a prayer for marking time……

The time will come

when, with elation,

you will greet yourself arriving

at your own door, in your own mirror,

& each will smile at the other’s welcome,

& say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was your self.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,

peel your own image from the mirror.

Sit. Feast on your life.

….Derek Wolcott

4 thoughts on “the rhythms of a life…another full moon….another brave day….

  1. What does it take to know God, to really know and no longer just believe. I heard Adyashanti say “isn’t enlightenment really just seeing things the way they are” When I look at children, I see they are enlightened. They live outside of the shadows of the moon, their light has not been eclipsed yet… As we grow older, we should also grow younger again, return to love, innocent youth, wiser in knowing… Happy birthday Leo… I might have known….

    • that’s exactly what I was trying to ‘get at’ with non-doing….the not striving so hard with expectations & over-planning, etc…..nothing compares to those little spontaneous moments of reverie……indeed, return to love & grow younger again….as I reflect on my birthday, I am light of heart with gratitude for being able to peak under the veil…..yes, a Leo…with lots of water to balance the fire(thank God)…..enjoy your youthfulness g.f.s….

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