the unbreakable, unbearable heart


Where is God?

It’s as if what is unbreakable-

the very pulse of life- waits for

everything else to be torn away,

and then in the bareness that

only silence and suffering and

great love can expose, it dares

to speak through us and to us.

It seems to say, if you want to last,

hold on to nothing. If you want

to know love, let in everything.

If you want to feel the presence

of everything, stop counting the

things that break along the way.

….Mark Nepo

find your way back to the heart

In many ways, the spiritual path is about letting go. It’s death in slow motion. So if we travel our path genuinely, death is but a graceful exit from a path well traveled. We can choose to let go now and die before we die, easing our transition. Or we can wait and be forced to let go during death, which often results in a bumpy ride. As Trungpa Rinpoche says, letting go is initially unfamiliar to us, which is why it hurts. But meditation is about ‘becoming familiar with’ letting go and therefore eases all the transitions in life- and death. Be genuine, simple, and ordinary. Like death itself. If we don’t interfere, dying is easy. It’s the one thing in life we don’t have to do. And no matter how much we have studied the bardos (the netherworld gap, in between), the experience is always fresh. Our experience is far richer than the best map, so don’t let it cramp your journey, and don’t expect to die in a prescribed way. The subtle body, which is made up of the channels, wind, drops, and chakras, is what dissolves in the inner dissolution. And the very subtle body, is what’s revealed at the end of the inner dissolution, which is the point of death. This very subtle body does not die. In the next life, which begins in the cosmic dressing room of the bardo of becoming, this very subtle body will temporarily cover itself yet again with a new subtle and gross body, only to strip it all off when that next life ends……..Andrew Holecek

we have no idea what surrender really means, but we know what it does not mean, and we know when we struggle against the flow of what is real……good intentions seek us out, call for greater intimacy and deeper quiet…..we shall see if reality holds our hearts…..

Meditation is letting go of self-centered control, dropping mind and body to cultivate the empty field where self-regulation comes forth naturally. Western culture mistrusts self-regulation. The power of technology seduces us with the idea that we can control and regulate  everything to our satisfaction. Intellectually, most of us recognize that nobody is in complete control of his life, but this doesn’t stop us from trying to exercise control over others: our parents, our children, our coworkers, even people we don’t know. When things don’t go the way they ‘should,’ we become frustrated, angry, anxious, or depressed, depending on whether we blame ourselves, the other person, ‘the system,’ the gods, the stars, or fate. The more you think you ‘should’ be able to be in charge, the more you become addicted to control and vulnerable to the agonies of withdrawal when it breaks down. The Serenity Prayer was developed by the theologian Reinhold Niebuhr. Parts of it are well known, including its credo of taking life one moment at a time. Fewer people, though, are familiar with the portion of it that urges us to find serenity by ‘accepting hardship as a pathway to peace.’….Robert Meikyo Rosenbaum

5 thoughts on “the unbreakable, unbearable heart

  1. Surrender is but a moment (eternity) letting go…… last to understand what it means to know……….. How hard the lesson can be, the releasing of the reigns that never held. ~ Love, Bobbie

    • this is why we cherish the quiet… be with…instead of forging ‘ahead’ all of the time…..and yes, how hard it is sometimes…….on floating clouds Bobbie…..

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