Intimacy begins with oneself.
can we understand our intuitive & sensual knowing? can we lean into not understanding it…….& simply be in it?
You can learn to trust the one who knows, to experience consciousness as the space of awareness that is unchanging, independent of circumstance. It is open and clear and luminous. It is the space of knowing and compassion, of conscience and wisdom. The One Who Knows invites you to step outside of time, outside of the endless worries about the future, and the repeated re-runs of the past. The one who knows takes refuge in the present moment. A day at a time, the present moment is all we have, and it becomes the doorway to true calm, your healing refuge. The only place you can love, or heal or awaken is here and now, the eternal present. You cannot know the future. But you can plant beautiful seeds here and now and learn to tend them with the love and courage and survival instinct that is born in you. Somerset Maugham wrote, “There are three rules for writing the Great English noval. Unfortunately, no one knows what they are.” He wrote marvelous novels, the only way we can, a page at a time. Whether cancer or divorce or loss or conflict, the one who knows understands that it is here in the present that we begin to heal. The one who knows has the courage to acknowledge the way things are, and to care and love and trust, no matter what. It is ever present and unattached, open to whatever is happening.
But becoming aware and mindful, resting in the one who knows in the midst of your struggles, is not some magical cure. Your problems will not automatically and easily disappear. Being anxious and sad, angry and fearful, hurt, lost, and even despairing in challenging times is part of the natural process of suffering. Even being overwhelmed by these difficult emotions is a natural part of the journey. If you judge yourself against some impossible ideal of how you think you “should” be feeling and acting as you struggle, you’ll only add to your suffering. To be mindful and awake is not some magical state without any problems.
“If you can sit quietly after difficult news; if, in financial downturns you remain perfectly calm; if you can see your neighbors travel to fantastic places without a twinge of jealousy; if you could happily eat whatever is put on your plate; if you can fall asleep after a day of running around without a drink or a pill; if you can always find contentment just where you are: you are probably a dog.”
Being alive is to find ourselves in the midst of a great and mysterious paradox. The one who knows realizes that there are ten thousand joys and sorrows in every life, and at one time or another we will be touched by all of them. We will all experience birth and death, success and loss, love and heartbreak, joy and despair. And in every moment of your life there are millions of humans just like you all over the world who are being confronted by situations that are equally overwhelming and are struggling just like you to somehow learn how to survive them. As George Washington Carver wrote, “How far you go in life depends on you being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and the strong … because some day in life you will have been all of these.”
As you become intimate with your suffering, your heart grows tender.
Truth is not something outside to be discovered,
it is something inside to be realized.