I put in my goddamn hearing aid
in order to listen to a bird that sounds
like the side of a drinking glass
struck lightly by a fork
and try not to hate a life
that dips you in Time like a tea bag
over and over and pulls you up
each year a slightly different color.
Yet I like this hour when the air goes soft
and leaves stir with relief at the end
of their labor of being leaves.
“What a piece of work is man,” I say,
forgetting Hamlet said it first-
“how noble in reason, how infinite in faculties,
in form and moving how express;
and yet, to me, the quintessence of dust!”
This hour of the evening
with a little infinity inside,
like an amnesty from the interminable
condition of being oneself.
This half-hour when you can look
and see that it is sweet.
Even in my deafness I can hear
the bird whose name I do not know,
speaking to someone in the dusk.
what is holy is here in the underpinnings of reactivity…..
inquiry for today~ reach into the day and hear the birds as if you knew what they knew….
The act of praying made a difference. It brought a little clarity and a little space into my confusion, and I found a way to continue. By making prayer a part of my daily practice, I discovered a new possibility: faith, a quiet source of strength that became vitally important to me in the years ahead and helped my many times to keep going in difficult situations. This for me, is the essential quality of prayer: a reaching out that moves us beyond our ordinary conceptual mind and our reactive emotional mind. Devotion is closely related to awe, where awe is a feeling of being intimately connected to something that is infinitely greater than you. When the feeling of devotion you engender through prayer is so intense that thinking stops, your heart opens and you have no choice but to trust the utter groundlessness of experience. You rest there speechless and without thought and other possibilities such as insight and direct awareness arise. Devotion is an opening of your heart to the possibilities you seek- the possibilities of peace, freedom, or awakening.