I knew what to think, where to focus, and how to apply it- so then what?
My what became a dance with what I was actually doing. I needed to become uncomfortably honest with myself.
What was beneath the surface. What did I truly want, not what I was saying I wanted, what lived beneath that?
My how became a dance with how was I unconsciously trying to get out of doing the work (because it is work) and get a free pass to move on.
And my when became a dance with when would I finally be willing to see all of that, all that I had been doing and just how I had been doing it- basically everything that was adding to my sinking feeling!
No one warns you about these things when you begin to expand. When you begin to awaken. When you dive into the work of spiritual growth. That just about every idea and concept that has caught your attention is having the exact opposite effect on your life.
No one tells you that everything you have already learned is going to be put to the test and all of the things that you thought you had overcome will show up several more times. No one tells you that the spiritual teaching, concept, and lesson you just learned has just become your biggest block in moving forward because you are clinging to it and your mind is manipulating it to validate your current situation.
No one shouts from the rooftops that to be truly spiritual is extremely plain and boring and often hard as hell. It’s really not a great sales pitch. However, it is painfully honest.
Everyone is happy to tap their toes and tell you what they have done to get to where they are, but there are very few that will tell you this.
It doesn’t matter what I’ve done, what matters is discovering what’s happening for you and what you need to do to experience your life the way that you desire to.
Instead, maybe try this:
- The first step is choosing to walk this path.
- The second step is to start running down it.
- The third step is to fall on your face.
- The fourth step is to lay there long enough for the haze to wear off and begin to see clearly for the first time in your life.
- The fifth step is to repeat.
So while the rah rah rah stories are a better sales pitch, all I have to sell you is a journey where you arrive home to you.
and it’s ok to not know how to be….
inquiry for today~ with all of this, isn’t it a little easier to lighten up today?
You worry too much.
You have seen your own strength.
You have seen your own beauty.
You have seen your golden wings.
Of anything less-
why do you worry?
You are in truth-
of the soul,
of the soul.